You simply could not pay enough attention to that singular detail could you?
I think you would pry it and pick and let it scab over and then begin your investigative process of foul habits.
It sickens me the way people get so self absorbed and fester and fight and bore holes into people who smile, and give and cook and assist.
I wish there was a version of the an underground group like PETA...that went around torturing abusive husband, boyfriends, and fathers. I know that sounds harsh...and Im the first one to turn the other cheek but I want to defend these people. I dont want them to walk around and hate themselves because other people hate them.
Im tired of that sickness. I lived with it long enough...and anyone close enough to me knows exactly what I am speaking of...One of my close friends tells me to act as though I am a prince and deserve the best treatment. Its hard when I find it difficult not to be humble to any other living thing. I often resort to those feelings of self loathing and depreciation because thats what I was told and how I was treated...and then I go on courting men in my life that have done the same. Same down casting tone, same sarcastic bitterness, same brutal blows.
Im not a cowboy when it comes to morality. I mess up, but I try really hard to put my desires behind others. I know that sounds like some stupid monk's line. Or at least ridiculous...because we are selfish but if we realize that helping others brings joy...then its a little bit more justified. Im not talking codependence here but real giving.
Anyway. maybe thats the revolution. every stuck up arrogant asshole would get a slap across their face. and told very sternly by Oprah that they suck. They truly suck as a human being and need to turn their lives around and pay attention to there friends, lovers, dogs, and children.
Stop worrying about their hair and their nails...and realize that the self obsessing wont attract more men but just annoy the fuck out of someone else.
Ill tell you Im pretty fucking pissed off right now. And Ill kick your dumb ass hide in what you deem as selfish, or you are working on your own shit right now...its no excuse for emotional irresponsibility..
Peace.
2 comments:
I like your rambling anger. Anger provides energy, energy provides power. Stay angry, be powerful.
Just be nice about it.
I'm sorry you have seen and experienced so much abuse. I'm sorry that abuse even exists, it's inexcusable.
Abuse has to exist. The worst kind is neglect or absent...because thats when people start beating themselves up...carving their arms and running away from the "why cant they?'s" in booze and dope, as my grandmother would say..
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