list things to do.

TO DO:
Change Oil
GO shopping
Go to the gym , ok this is boring...ummm lets go for long term like in the next five-seven years:
Get into a good MFA program
learn more about Ceramics and buy a wheel and kiln
Buy a loom
Graduate from an MFA program
Climb a really high mountain.
Quit smoking
Fall in love again and again.
Return to Europe...summer in Italy..
Hmmm...buy a house and work on it.
Learn italian in italy...while im taking classes on ceramics and traveling and immersing myself in culture....(any amazing cultural center can be replaced with Italy)
Hmmm. keep visiting New York...
Retreat...for three months in Nova Scotia...
Travel to Asia for a trip...cambodia, japan, thailand, china...mongolia...pick one and do it.
or australia...for a long time...maybe i should study there.
Buy a small place or land in NewMexico for future visits and maybe retirement or good investment.
ok..well i wont accomplish all of it but it seems possible
but then again...in the past five years i finished two degrees, lived in the desert, cemented my knowledge of spanish, and traveled and study in spain, and england...
lived in Paraguay, tried the peace corps...
traveled to almost every state of the country..
in love twice...wait three times..now
and climbed several mountains.
ok wait maybe last seven years...thats a lucky number anyway..

hmmm i like my list...
i know this is the happy...grab life by the horns part of me..
but that part is what gets thing done.

i think i wont avoid
debt
disappointment
sadness
pain
doubt
regret
or any other emotion.
especially a broken heart. i love that one so much.

off i go...im planning a trip to idaho...
a class where i learn how to use photoshop..well
and of course..new mexico...
with a quick jaunt..to Arches..Moab...Utah...the stuff of good memories.

today i am happy. i will slurp vegetarian.
sweat in a sweathouse, and movie in a movie house.

its friday. the day i have been waiting...
im happy because i got a bigger room to teach in next year.
they do listen.

Regardless of what happens...dont ever stop trying.
I didnt visit italy...and i havent found a boyfriend...
i still havent sky dived, visited africa
or bungee jumped, and i cant speak japanese.
but life is a long time
sometimes it seem short and you wake up and your only 37.

fear is just a nother little hill to walk up.

it took me 200 bowls to create one that wouldnt bust in a kiln.
i wanted to be patient...but i had to keep doing...to get there

peace out.
this one i have to read on the days i feel so dead.