the word.

it was a photo. and it was stark naked.
the music was all bluegrass with some Brokeback thrown into the mix.
and Johnny Cash of course.
-no xo, one sentence written. little revealed.
dumbfounded, Colorado, dumbfounded.

he sets to work with his hands all day. building assembling, stroking.
his eyes light up each time i see him.
it makes me return each time.
he says selfish. very selfish.
am I going deaf, again?
not this time..i have my headphones on.
saved my life... thats the word.

I want to go to the mountains. please listen and then respond to my thoughts. paint images so that i can remember these days.
pieces, stuck to, layers...maps to understand where I am going. or where I stand right now in this swamp.

I have to let one light blink on and off when it needs to.
its comforting to know its there.
it pointed out the solid ground.

I need to think about this retreat. it might bring me a back the two weeks i have lost.
-Coal